Saturday, May 31, 2008

YAY Sarah!

Sarah that is AWESOME!!! I'm so proud of you! How totally awesome!!! *cheers* The only thing that kept me from screaming hoorah out loud was the presence of my new roommate and her friend Justin. hee hee... ^^

I've been doing well... except until tonight. I ate two pieces of Domino's pizza, but I never got full today. Not like that's an excuse! I'm sure I consumed about 700 calories eating those pieces... maybe more, so I need to forget and do better! Have not exercised since like Tuesday, but me'n Taleea walked around campus for about 30 minutes at least so that was active-ness. Plus, I found the gym WOW! I love it! And the awesome thing is, you have to sign in with your i-card and get a byu gym outfit to exercise there, then you drop off your outfit when you're done to sign out and they wash it! xD I just think that's cool... haha.

So, next Wednesday me AND Taleea start Soccer together, yaaaaaaaay! Even though she's in ridiculously awesome shape compared to me (since she runs I guess 3 times a week or something), I'm determined to do good and keep it up. And today when we went grocery shopping, I got all healthy natural foods so yay! You keep it up as well Sarah!

Success at last!

First of all, I just read your posts Mary and even though you let things go one day you got back on the proverbial 'wagon' so don't beat yourself up too hard, the important thing is to realize your mistakes and keep on trudging along! You are doing so awesome!!!

Ok so back to my story...

After Mary left I found myself snacking more (because Mary wasn't there to see me... so I guess it goes both ways Mary, I don't like to do things that YOU may catch ME doing either!) And the scale got stuck at 177--at least it seemed to me. It actually was at 176 yesterday, but thats not the point. I was frustrated because of course as everyone knows the whole point of exercising and obsessing over your food and weight is to see the scale going down. So yesterday I really watched what I ate. I had a measured serving of cereal for breakfast, a spinach salad with strawberries and walnuts for lunch (oh YUM YUM YUM!) a banana for a snack and one helping of gumbo for dinner.

Sooo this morning I hop on the scale and.. have you ever stepped on the scale and the number was so unexpected you take a few seconds to comprehend what you are seeing? Well that was me this morning. The scale read 174.8! I had been prepping myself for 176 and HOPING for 175 so I was totally shocked to see 174 (even if there was that pesky .8 at the end, making it much closer to 175) So now I am officially at Mary's starting weight! Which is awesome! That was my first 'goal'! Now off to get lighter than Mary! Hahahah

Friday, May 30, 2008

Yesterday was somewhat Success

I resisted a hamburger... candy... butterfingers... etc. But it wasn't as hard as I thought! Here's what I ate:

1 cup Special K with Strawberries and 1/2 cup 1% milk
6 in roastbeef sub with light ranch and light mustard
Fresh pineapple... a LOT of it
1 cup taco soup at Tina's house with about 7 tortilla chips (serving size was 9)
iceberg lettuce salad with less than 2 tbsp ranch
1/2 cup or less macaroni salad
2 pieces of cantaloupe (i'm beginning to like it! yay!)
8 baby carrots or so
Half an orange
more cherries
LOTS of water! Lots and LOTS of it!

I think that's it... Wow, now looking at it I guess I didn't eat as much as I thought I did! (unless I ate something that I forgot about... but I don't think so) Did I do better? I felt ridiculously full (ridiculously considering what I ate) after eating the 6' sub for lunch and drinking two cups of water which was odd... maybe my stomach is shrinking! Then, everything from the taco soup to the baby carrots I had as dinner and that all made me feel pretty full, even if there was a bout a 30 min window in between the taco soup and the next item. Did my ab work and went walking with 5 of Tina's boys and Zack to some little shop where I resisted ice cream while all the boys got shakes and icecream/cookie sandwiches. The walking was not hard and it probably was only 20 minutes, so it wasn't much of a workout but it was being active so I'll take it.

Vacation CRASHES Diet!

(okay, so I wrote this yesterday on wordpad without internet for Tuesday's eating day)

So, I knew I’d eat bad food on the plane, or what I meant was eating unhealthy food. I kinda figured I wouldn’t eat so well ya know, especially yesterday and maybe till Friday, but MAN! I don’t like it! I started off by getting a healthy Arby’s salad Tuesday night, then going back to our hotel and swimming and holding onto the side of the pool and doing kicks for exercise for 30 minutes, did my ab work and was all set to keep at it through my trip. Well… Wednesday morning I did well BEFORE we got on the plane, because I got a whole wheat bagel from a bagel shop in front of our door for the flight. I ate half of it with a VERY thin spread of cream cheese and a banana (with an apple, a smooshed ALL FRUIT roll up, and a packet of sliced roasted almonds and water for snacks for the trip). I felt good at that point…
Then, little nice first class offers me something to drink, and I refuse. Yay! So I drink the bottle of water they had sitting on my seat. Then once we took off (and about an hour and a half after my breakfast) they go around taking orders for breakfast. It’s either cereal or an egg quesadilla with sausage. Egg quesadilla. WHAT AM I THINKING?!?!?!?!! My seat buddy got one too, a very nice older lady named Dixie who talked to me all about her little grandchildren, I liked her a lot. So then they bring out this scrumptious looking meal with actually decent sized portions! (for America, that is) They had four little circles of sausage (looks like they cut cross ways a sausage link), two triangles of the quesadilla per plate with cheese, eggs and black beans; a container of salsa for it; a bowl with two slices of watermelon, two slices of honeydew, and a small nip of pineapple; last but not least, a scrumptious looking small bun with probably a 9-12 grain mixture in it and dried cranberries, all complete with a thing of butter and strawberry jam to put on it.
…I ate it… I ate it ALL!!!! Except the condiments they provided and one sausage circle. DEVASTATION! I ruined my diet! And I ate a packet of nuts they offered me later, but I did resist the other goodies like sun chips and cookies! Then, we arrive and Alma –kindly, though too kindly considering my already butchered eating plan – took us to a Chinese BUFFET. I kept my plate under the best control I could the first time, loading it up with vegetables, only TWO pot stickers (though they were significantly larger and more full than the frozen ones we cook at home), only HALF an eggroll (they had them all cut in half, that was SO nice!), and something else, but no rice! I inhaled my plate and felt full… though not terribly so. The problem then was that I was watching Alma and Dad nibble their food and kept thinking about eating. So I got one more small dose of the vegetables and got some watermelon slices and orange slices instead of anything else. Once I was done with that, I wasn’t really tempted by the food anymore, except for the thought of the ice cream that was in the freezer… so I gave in and went to go get some.

HAHAHAHA!!! IT was WONDERFUL! These Chinese people really know how to cut portions and cater to weight-loss’ers! They had little cups that were maybe a size and a half larger than the cups you put arby’s sauce in (‘cept they were portion) and they had probably about a regular eating-sized spoonful of ice cream in each of them… and a little less. Luckily, their freezer was really cold so it was hard to dish out, so I ate my mint chocolate chip smudge in DINKY bites, and it was excellent! I actually really enjoyed it like that! So then, when the smudge was almost just a faint marr in my saucer, I ate half of my fortune cookie and WHAT A DUO! It tasted SO good after the taste of that ice cream, that I took the last of the smudge and put it in the fortune cookie and ate it… DELECTABLE!
Okay, I’ll wrap the rest quickly. I ate ¾ of my leftover bagel with creamcheese later and my smooshed fruit roll up and an orange and some grapes somewhere around 4:00 their time (which, we had eaten Chinese at 11:30 their time…) then we went to some burger place at around 7:30. I wanted to eat healthy, and I KNOW I had regained my self control but I LET myself get something other than a salad. I got a what I thought was a grilled lemon chicken sandwich with lemon dressing stuff, lettuce and tomato. But, it came out as a piece of breaded chicken (no, TWO BIG pieces of chicken) with one slice of tomato, lettuce, TONS of mayonnaise (which, I had been hoping to avoid), and all the onions I’d ordered on it. I was kinda upset/mad/frustrated, but I didn’t complain I just ate it. And how terrible. I allowed myself to eat some of Dad’s fries and some of Robin’s onion rings because I figured that I was already botching my plan and I’d just do better Thursday… but I felt so gross afterwards. The chicken sandwich oozed grease (not a lot of it, but the mayonnaise was getting runny because it was heated up by the contents of the sandwich) on my hand, and when I was done eating it it was just a gross dirty feeling. Your mouth feels so refreshed after eating a salad or a hummus wrap, but after eating something like that its just nasty. And I did have to note that Robin did not finish off the onion rings and she left part of her sandwich… *makes mental note to follow the eating habits of skinny people and NOT eat all her food*
I did not exercise yesterday, obviously… but I just ate my breakfast this morning of a small bowl of special k with strawberries cereal (little amount of cereal and 1% milk), some fresh cherries and water. I am doing better today daggonnit!!!

(sorry its so long... lol)

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

At Mom's

So due to my stress level being at an ALL TIME HIGH I am back at my moms house. And here is where I mess up my diet the most. Er, I'm not really on a "diet" but I tend to overeat/overindulge while I am here. But not this time! Mary is here which helps a lot but she's leaving for Idaho next week (waah!) but I will be ok without her.. I think. Haha ;)

So yesterday Mary and I did a workout video that she does. Prevention 3-2-1 something-or-other, it was pretty intense and I kept wondering WHEN IS THIS GOING TO END?!?! It has a lot of little segments. It was fun though. Today I did 30 minutes on the treadmill while the kids watched TV! It was awesome. I need a treadmill. What a great way to workout AND watch the kids AND keep them occupied. Thats my biggest problem at home, when I'm working out they are literally right under my feet. The kids AND the dog. She likes to lay down right behind me while I'm working out so when I step backwards I trip over her! Pooh.

Anyway eating-- I'm working on that. Mary is doing really well keeping track of calories and I haven't been tracking what I've been eating so of course I've been eating more. I'm going to be trying to get a grip on that this week because I want to see that scale go DOWN!

Anyway all in all I'm trying pretty hard to make some progress. I think I've lost a few pounds-- nothing substantial yet but I'll keep plugging along!

Monday, May 19, 2008

Unstructured SUCKS! and... "Could it be the moon?"

I can't believe how much I depend on STRUCTURE in my day! So yesterday, Sunday, was terrible. I ate ALL day long, was full ALL day long, and really had no self-control. Talking to Sarah, seems she was along the same lines... "Could it be the full moon?" we wonder. While I'm not superstitious it was kinda funny/ironic that the moon was full yesterday.

Anyways back to STRUCTURE! I went to bed L.A.T.E. last night, 12:30am!!! That is WAY too late for me, especially when I've been bedding down at 10:30-11:00ish and waking at 6:30am. I ended up getting up at 7:30 but not fully rousing till 7:45ish. Then I spent the next couple of hours browsing the internet, wasting time, etc. FINALLY went to Justin, worked with him and rode one of Ann's horses... GAH! The day hasn't gone as good as hoped, I need STRUCTURE. That means bedtime tonight at 11:00 at latest!


Mini whole wheat bagel with 1/2 tbsp butter
An entire grapefruit

Popcorn w/salt and seasoning (1/2 cup of UNPOPPED popcorn, that was popped... erm... aLOT of popcorn)
Whole grain tortilla with 1/4 cup tuna salad, lots of lettuce and sprouts, and about 1.5 tbsp relish


Spaghetti w/sausage sauce & light parmesan cheese
Broccoli w/parmesan cheese and butter
Corn w/butter
Salad w/2 tbsp ranch dressing


I was VERY full after dinner (and still am!) should've shrunk my portions, but I didn't realize - or it just didn't occur to me that Mom and/or Dad had slathered the corn and broccoli in their respective bowls with butter! GAH! I just found the reason probably behind my very full stomach! (oh, and 2 cups FULL of water probably helped to fill up too, and my spaghetti portion was smaller than I USED to have but probably still a tad too large) I will do better tomorrow!


40 minutes on treadmill, Ab exercises
including: 5 minute warmup, 30 minute 4mph pace (with 4 2-minute intervals of 4.5mph jogging), 5 minute cooldown

Thursday, May 15, 2008


Everyday this week (tomorrow and Saturday included of course!) I've worked out, done all my schoolwork, and ate healthy (with a few mishaps, but nothing major enough to freak out about). It's all in the mindset! I know it's silly, but ever since I thought of it like "Hey, you wouldn't even THINK about giving into pressure to drink or smoke, so WHY can't you keep yourself from eating excess amounts of food?" since that I basically haven't. So, there's been a couple mistakes, but when I make one I just ignore it and focus on the positive and tell myself: "Do better next time! " And then when I get discouraged because I personally don't see a WHOLE lot of difference, I just tell myself "Keep trying and after a year of exercising and eating healthy you'll at least be in great shape even if you're still 158 pounds!"

I'm so glad we started this blog, you're doing a great job Sarah and I can't wait to see you and exercise with you Saturday morning! (You, Sabina and I can go for a walk and leave Jason to take care of the boys in the morning) Just think of how good we're gonna look, and how good we FEEL! It's so nice to exercise because you feel so AWESOME afterwards! Keep up the good work, let's keep on truckin'!
Here's me enjoying a 'heavenly' piece of apple with that delectable bit of stuff inside that you gave me the recipe for Sarah! (I need to work on my heavenly face, it sorta looks like I'm staring cautiously at the ceiling... o.O)

The thing I'm most looking forward to...

Since I'm a mother I'm up and down all the time-- sitting on the floor, jumping up to get stuff, etc...

Well the thing I am MOST looking forward to about being 40 some pounds lighter is being able to hop up easier! My gosh I feel like an old lady it takes me so long to get up off the floor!

Anyway I have been doing ok lately. Last night I was at Tracy's house and I ate a second hot dog and more potato chips than I should have had. And today... well I had a few mishaps today but nothing major. The biggest thing was I made pot pies (real healthy, I know) for the boys for dinner and I made myself one of those Healthy Choice tv dinner things (350 calories, 9 grams of fat and it includes a dessert! Not a great dessert, but its sweet) Well as I was cooling off the kids pot pies I took a few bites. And then Jeremy didn't eat his and I took a few more bites. Then I later looked at his plate (which he didn't even touch!) and noticed that there was quite a bit gone from his pot pie. Ok realistically it MAY have been 1/3rd but probably more like 1/4. I still had guilt though. Those pot pies have 21 grams of fat in them and something like 400 or 500 calories!

Tonight I hooked the bike trailer up to my bike and I put Jeremy in the baby seat on my bike and the other boys in the bike trailer and did 4 laps around the block. The block is probably about 1/2 mile so thats 2 miles. Not bad for adding about 100 extra pounds (or more!) to my bike!!!!!!!! I was pooped!

Oh and halfway through our ride the boys said "There's a frog in here!" I thought they were joking, or saw a stick that looked like a frog or something. Nope, I pulled over and there was a FROG in the bike trailer behind the seat. Well, it was probably a toad but we haven't gotten to the frog vs toad section of our homeschooling yet! So anyway I chased it out. We tried to get Nathan to pick it up but he was afraid he would squish it and I didn't want to pick it up. I don't know what happened to me, I used to go looking for them to pick up and now I don't want to touch them. Weird.

So anyway. I'm going to do some crunches, push ups and maybe a few squats while I watch my tv shows tonight to round out the leg work I did in my bike!

Oh and I FEEL thinner. I put on some workout pants tonight that I wore earlier in the week and I swear my tummy isn't bulging out of them like it was before. I am really excited for the scale to get here tomorrow night! OH-- and my husband too hahaha. I just hope I'm not disappointed.

Wednesday, May 14, 2008


Well, I was tickled to death by my eating and exercising success for the past two days, but I can barely TYPE about it with this danged backspace! (Also is the reason why I'm suddenly bummed, see my normal blog for reason)

I didn't keep a food journal today but I CAN recount everything I ate, and I kept half a food journal yesterday. Didn't want to exercise today, but did 40 minutes on the treadmill anyways at 4.0 and 4.5 (the latter I ran) the whole time. Yesterday I did my 3-2-1 Prevention Workout.

Okay, am sick of an 'Enter' key that works half the time I push it and same with the backspace. >_>...

Tuesday, May 13, 2008

And here I am.

ETA: The last time that I weighed myself before this post I was 182.

I can't weigh myself because I put the scale in Jason's car! I miss my scale!! But I feel lighter. I've only been trying hard since Saturday but I feel a difference. I feel fitter.

I've been going to bed around 9:30 so I haven't been dog tired in the mornings. Its also keeping me from that evil late-night-snacking. Last night I was REALLY wanting a snack so i went to bed. I bought two new exercise videos yesterday. One of them is the Biggest Loser Cardio Workout and the other is a salsa dance video. I apparently suck at dancing. They lost me in the first 5 minutes, so I did the biggest loser one instead. I loved it! The coolest part is that you customize your workout, there is a pick screen before the video starts and you pick what you want to do. I guess all their videos are like that. There are more of them on Amazon I really want to get them. I want to be the biggest loser! Hahah

I've been doing very good eating. I'm not going to post my food log even though I have been keeping one, its just too much to type and nobody reads it anyway! Haha. I took the boys to Ukrops yesterday because they have a great selection of health food, its almost like a health food store but not as good. Its the closest thing to a health food store on this side of town. So anyway, we got a few different nuts- raw sunflower seeds, roasted pumpkin seeds (with no salt), and we had a great time getting stuff out of the bulk bins. They had whole wheat breadsticks! Woohoo! Hunter got a bag of those sugared mangoes (fortunately it was low sugar but not nutrisweet, just less sugar I guess) and he shared them with his brothers.. there weren't any left by the time we got home and he keeps telling me that they're his favorite food.

Oops getting away from the diet thing and more into what should go in my regular blog! Anyway been doing pretty good so far. I'm really into this-- I think I'm finally in it for the long haul.

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Tired...oh so tired...

My temptation meter was in the RED tonight, and my self control was sorely tried. I DID prevail, but I was still slightly full after dinner and my midday snack went a little over the edge. Anyways, I'm just gonna do better tomorrow!

But I'm tired, SOOOO tired. Not necessarily physically, just sorta mentally, overwhelmingly, etcetera. I've got Jennifer to cart around 4 days this week, a horse's eye to medicate 3 times everyday this week, 2-3 hours of schoolwork to do everyday this week, 2-4 hours of work to do 4 days this week, allergy shots on Monday, Institute on Wednesday, a talk to write for Sunday, a Ren Faire to head to Friday afternoon and then come home from RIGHT afterwards on Saturday night, not to mention feeding the goats twice a day, reading my scriptures and ensign everyday, somehow going to bed at 10:30 every night and waking up each day at 6:30, BREATHING..........

and to add to it, I've still got to watch what I eat each day, make sure I don't go TOO long between meals (I either eat too many meals or go too long between them, sometimes there'll be a 7 hour gap between breakfast and lunch), exercise everyday, and then the fact that it takes me 5 minutes to get together and take all my meds in the mornings, the showers I have to take on an every-other-day basis, and the 30 minutes of "bed prep" I do every night. phew! Oh, and Sabina's skirt I have to help her make, but Mom'll help I'm sure and I'm excited for THAT part!

Anyways, dunno if I'll have the chance to blog on here this week or the next. I've got lots of schoolwork to do it's not even funny, plus packing and shopping for school. Fun but exasperating! And then add my horse and it's one giant mess, THANK HEAVEN this Thursday is my LAST day of work - yippeeee!!!!

Saturday, May 10, 2008

...back on the wagon

I keep falling off. I am terrible at this. But Mary looks so good she has motivated me! Plus I she can't leave me back here, fat and alone! I want to join the skinny crowd!

I'm going to start tracking my food again and I'm going to start exercising NO MATTER WHAT. I'm thinking I'll put the boys in the bike trailer and Jeremy in a hiking backpack and get out there and WALK. I have to do it.