Friday, February 13, 2009

UnconTROLLED

I hear ya Becca, it's so dang cold! Walked to my 7:45am class this morning in -8 degrees, my hair turned white as it frosted over and I exited my apartment eating an apple in one hand and a slice of cheese in the other... well, lets just say I was inHALING that apple because my hands were gloveless and they HURT SO bad. My hands really have never experienced such cold.

Anyways, I have been uncontrolled. Today and yesterday at least. I began this week VERY dedicated, organized and good. I went to bed on time everyday and for the most part followed my eating plan with small mess ups. But today I've done terrible and I only exercised once this week. I'm SO ashamed! I just feel uncontrolled!

But, I printed out motivational goal subconscious thingys (ya know, where you right goals in sentences of not "I'm going to do this" but "I am doing this! I have done this!" to tell yourself and implement it into your brain) It's hard to stay positive and be undiscouraged though, because I feel like if I mess up, then its pointless to read them because they obviously didn't work. Daggonnit! I can't think that! I won't! I don't! Agh! But I must do better, I WILL; I AM!

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Which track am I supposed to be on??

I seem to have forgotten...it has been SO cold and so many other things are happening right now in our life that I have seemed to phase out exercise! I feel awful about it and can tell I'm kinda sinking into depressed mode, which is not a place I want to be in, especially when we are getting ready to move in about 2 weeks. I need to be on the ball, not getting squashed beneath it...

I spent several hours yesterday helping a friend move into her new house and clean her old house. It was a nice workout but exhausting. Hopefully we can go for a walk today after getting some stuff packed and goodwill stuff to the van. We shall see :)