Half Marathon?

So Ephraim asked me if I would run a marathon with him. Well... I told him that I would NOT have the time to train for a run a marathon during the summer semester! So, he suggested a half marathon. Yikes! I am terribly out of shape right now and basically haven't exercised ALL SEMESTER. Goodness, I better start training now for some running.

I am -desperately- hoping that I will lose weight doing this. AND that we will stick to it! Dang it, I'm gonna hold Ephraim to his word!

UnconTROLLED

I hear ya Becca, it's so dang cold! Walked to my 7:45am class this morning in -8 degrees, my hair turned white as it frosted over and I exited my apartment eating an apple in one hand and a slice of cheese in the other... well, lets just say I was inHALING that apple because my hands were gloveless and they HURT SO bad. My hands really have never experienced such cold.

Anyways, I have been uncontrolled. Today and yesterday at least. I began this week VERY dedicated, organized and good. I went to bed on time everyday and for the most part followed my eating plan with small mess ups. But today I've done terrible and I only exercised once this week. I'm SO ashamed! I just feel uncontrolled!

But, I printed out motivational goal subconscious thingys (ya know, where you right goals in sentences of not "I'm going to do this" but "I am doing this! I have done this!" to tell yourself and implement it into your brain) It's hard to stay positive and be undiscouraged though, because I feel like if I mess up, then its pointless to read them because they obviously didn't work. Daggonnit! I can't think that! I won't! I don't! Agh! But I must do better, I WILL; I AM!

Which track am I supposed to be on??

I seem to have forgotten...it has been SO cold and so many other things are happening right now in our life that I have seemed to phase out exercise! I feel awful about it and can tell I'm kinda sinking into depressed mode, which is not a place I want to be in, especially when we are getting ready to move in about 2 weeks. I need to be on the ball, not getting squashed beneath it...

I spent several hours yesterday helping a friend move into her new house and clean her old house. It was a nice workout but exhausting. Hopefully we can go for a walk today after getting some stuff packed and goodwill stuff to the van. We shall see :)

Been Counseled

I actually went to a counselor about overeating/food addiction, and she says she doesn't think I'm addicted to food.... hmm, I beg to differ. We talked about everything else as well and she made me commit to not helping a certain friend whom I've been holding up and carrying for the past 10 years and just letting that friend go so I can quit dealing with it.

Whatever, she said if I got rid of that, it might help (although I eat because I'm bored mostly, not necessarily because I'm stressed) but the sooner I realize food itself is not the issue and make food my friend I'll get over it. "Tell yourself that hey, if you're hungry you'll eat; if you're not hungry you won't eat." I've overeaten my caloric intake for the past few days, but I think I'm doing somewhat better. I still am overeating at times, but I'm overcoming it bit by bit.

Thanks for the tip Becca, I've kept that in mind and tried to establish that in my daily life. I also made a commitment to go exercise at the gym once a week this semester. I figured if I did 3-4 times I would fail miserably because it would be this huge obligation, but if I make sure I go at least one day, that's attainable and it might motivate me to do other days as well!

Good luck yall!

Overeating tip...

My friend out here in Idaho has lost over 80 pounds in the past 10 months or so, which I think is phenomenal! Well, I asked her because she has a sweet tooth and wanted sweets to snack on everyday what she did. She told me she still snacks on them everyday, but that it's just ONE per day. If this helps, try it Mary. Don't totally deprive yourself or you're going to fail. She keeps a little can of miniature candy bars for "dessert" after lunch. She has one everyday after her healthy lunch, works out every day for 40 or 30 mins and eats very well. She still has a bit to go before reaching her target goals but I thought this might help. It feels good to indulge a TINY bit everyday and helps you feel like you are not just cramming your body with celery and cabbage....

I love you Mary! GOOD LUCK!!!!

Glad to be back!

I'm glad I checked this thing and I'm glad Becca and Sarah are using it! Now, me too!

I've realized that my Food Addiction has become severely worse at college, I was doing okay at first but yesterday I had several uncontrolled binging and snacking moments. After an attempt to discuss this with my roommates, they all told me I had no "Food Addiction" and that it was all mental. OF COURSE ITS ALL MENTAL, WHAT DO YOU THINK AN ADDICTION IS?! ?! ?! Anyways, that kinda ticked me off, but they did try to help by telling me to drink water instead, eat, but eat stuff like cabbage and celery and pickles. (low to no cal foods) Sweet of them, and I will take their advice, but my problem is - I don't HAVE to eat 24/7 like I try to!

Anyways, today is the start of a stuck-to eating plan, I'm gonna allow myself a sweet or two a week as a reward (otherwise I'm sworn off sugar other than those couple sweets a week - they give me cold sores anyways) and I'm gonna work out! Me and Heidi are gonna work out this evening at 7pm.

My goal is 140lbs. I CAN do it! It's about 10-12 lbs at this point, so if I eat REAL small portions and exercise/strength train frequently, I should do good and be able to lose 2 lbs a week. I'm also going to post on here everyday with a short review of how I did.

Mild update

I haven't done as much as often as I'd have liked partially due to the bitter chilling cold winds that are blowing right now, enough to make my kids complain about being outside, and partially because I just am not motivated enough to get out of the house unless I have to.

Today I walked all over a subdivision looking at house and went visiting teaching on foot and then walked to look at another house this evening with the family. I also walked on Monday with the kids for about 30-40 mins, but it was so cold they didn't want to stay out any longer than that. I'm going to try to go walking tomorrow morning before my WIC appointment but I might not. I just am not sure right now...goodnight