First off, don't beat yourself up Mary! We all have those days where we just royally screw up. The most important thing is to KEEP GOING! Some days it is so much harder than others, but isn't this journey we're on worth it? We're not going to be fat anymore. WE'RE NOT GOING TO BE FAT ANYMORE! Hahaha you're doing great Mrrh!
Ok back to my latest success. I'm down another pound. Maybe its just a pound to you, but to me I'm only 1 lb away from my goal of being 165 before we leave to visit Jason's family. I'm 166 and I have 2 days to lose 1 more pound! I can do it! I'm so happy!
Oh and I think I've figured out the secret to weight loss. Watching what you eat! Not a huge secret, I know. But I've found that it makes a TREMENDOUS difference in the weight staying on or coming off. I did AWESOME on my eating yesterday and I aim to do the same today so I can make it to 165! The scale was 166.0 so I know I can get somewhere in the 165.somethings by Wed! Hooray!
Monday, June 30, 2008
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Justifying and Settling
So I finally bought a scale and it read 151.8... TWO times! I was ecstatic! Here I was thinking I had gained five pounds at least and I'd lost about 3-4 pounds! But... this was not good. Yesterday I overate everything..
I made biscuits and sausage gravy for three of our friends who did a miniature triathalon together, two guys from our ward who played soccer with us yesterday EARLY morning, and those of us who were here in our apartment (two had gone to Idaho Falls overnight). It was terrible! I only ate one biscuit with gravy, some oranges, but I had two helpings of grits with syrup and butter and salt. I felt very full and I did some snacking later. I did okay though when it was time for me and Taleea to go to Taco Time, I hadn't eaten anything since like 2:30 or something and it was 6:00. Instead of a simple taco, I got a chicken and rice burrito thing that probably had 500-600 calories, and then I drank water. Well, I felt full but ate some strawberries with chocolate anyways... then sherbert with sprite... then quite a few nachos with salsa... then a couple pretzels... then a cupcake... three doritos... I don't know what else. I wasn't full or anything, but the crap I was putting into my body was just terrible for me I know! Oh, and I had about a serving size worth of cookie dough ice cream at like 12:00am. >.<
I'm gonna do better daggonnit! I wore makeup for the first time yesterday (check my regular blog to see why sometime tonight or tomorrow) and it made me feel so good that I need to lose weight and make the REST of my body look great!
Oh btw, I jogged a mile on Saturday. I DID power walk one of the straights on laps #2,3,4 but I'm gonna keep it up! I met a guy Dan who said he'd be my running buddy, and Cami and I already go together so I'M GONNA DO IT! My goal is to be able to jog 2-3 miles but RUN run an actual mile before I leave here!
I made biscuits and sausage gravy for three of our friends who did a miniature triathalon together, two guys from our ward who played soccer with us yesterday EARLY morning, and those of us who were here in our apartment (two had gone to Idaho Falls overnight). It was terrible! I only ate one biscuit with gravy, some oranges, but I had two helpings of grits with syrup and butter and salt. I felt very full and I did some snacking later. I did okay though when it was time for me and Taleea to go to Taco Time, I hadn't eaten anything since like 2:30 or something and it was 6:00. Instead of a simple taco, I got a chicken and rice burrito thing that probably had 500-600 calories, and then I drank water. Well, I felt full but ate some strawberries with chocolate anyways... then sherbert with sprite... then quite a few nachos with salsa... then a couple pretzels... then a cupcake... three doritos... I don't know what else. I wasn't full or anything, but the crap I was putting into my body was just terrible for me I know! Oh, and I had about a serving size worth of cookie dough ice cream at like 12:00am. >.<
I'm gonna do better daggonnit! I wore makeup for the first time yesterday (check my regular blog to see why sometime tonight or tomorrow) and it made me feel so good that I need to lose weight and make the REST of my body look great!
Oh btw, I jogged a mile on Saturday. I DID power walk one of the straights on laps #2,3,4 but I'm gonna keep it up! I met a guy Dan who said he'd be my running buddy, and Cami and I already go together so I'M GONNA DO IT! My goal is to be able to jog 2-3 miles but RUN run an actual mile before I leave here!
Saturday, June 28, 2008
Hushing the negative voices in my head...
Today I put on a bathing suit and immediately felt disgusted. What good is losing 20 pounds, I say to myself, when I still look so bad in a bathing suit. I might as well haven't lost any weight at all.
UGH the self sabotaging voices are raging today! I haven't exercised yet and they're trying to tempt me into just not exercising today at all. They are making me look in the fridge and cupboards at what there is to gorge on. I won't give in, I CAN'T give up, but today it is so hard!
On to other dieting-type news-- last night for dinner I made some salmon fillets with a mustard-chipotle sauce. I cooked some lentils with a little onion, carrots and cumin. I served the lentils and salmon over a bed of baby spinach with a basalmic vinagrette dressing. It was VERY VERY good! Mom has a ton of blueberries so I made a blueberry cobbler for dessert. It was from the Healthy Cooking magazine so in essence it would have been somewhat dietary.. but add the scoop of vanilla ice cream and real whipped cream and it probably had 500-600 calories. So my dessert last night doesn't help the fat feeling today. It sure was good though!
UGH the self sabotaging voices are raging today! I haven't exercised yet and they're trying to tempt me into just not exercising today at all. They are making me look in the fridge and cupboards at what there is to gorge on. I won't give in, I CAN'T give up, but today it is so hard!
On to other dieting-type news-- last night for dinner I made some salmon fillets with a mustard-chipotle sauce. I cooked some lentils with a little onion, carrots and cumin. I served the lentils and salmon over a bed of baby spinach with a basalmic vinagrette dressing. It was VERY VERY good! Mom has a ton of blueberries so I made a blueberry cobbler for dessert. It was from the Healthy Cooking magazine so in essence it would have been somewhat dietary.. but add the scoop of vanilla ice cream and real whipped cream and it probably had 500-600 calories. So my dessert last night doesn't help the fat feeling today. It sure was good though!
Thursday, June 26, 2008
HOORAY!
Thanks for the reassurance Mary. It sounds like you're doing pretty darn good, considering your circumstances!!
Well my HOORAY is that I have OFFICIALLY lost 20 pounds! This morning I was 167!!! YAAAAAAAAY! I am so happy!
I haven't been keeping a food log but I have been consciously aware of what I have been eating and trying to make smart and healthy choices. I haven't been exercising as much as I'd like, I at least exercise every other day. I keep meaning to do exercise videos but those are harder to fit into the day so I end up running on the treadmill every other day but miss out on the videos more often than not. Blah! I am just so happy that I have made it 20 pounds. I'm halfway to my ultimate goal weight (which is ANYWHERE in the 140's but 147 will feel like I"m finally there!)
Well my HOORAY is that I have OFFICIALLY lost 20 pounds! This morning I was 167!!! YAAAAAAAAY! I am so happy!
I haven't been keeping a food log but I have been consciously aware of what I have been eating and trying to make smart and healthy choices. I haven't been exercising as much as I'd like, I at least exercise every other day. I keep meaning to do exercise videos but those are harder to fit into the day so I end up running on the treadmill every other day but miss out on the videos more often than not. Blah! I am just so happy that I have made it 20 pounds. I'm halfway to my ultimate goal weight (which is ANYWHERE in the 140's but 147 will feel like I"m finally there!)
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
It's Okay Sarah!
YAY FOR the 160's SARAH!!! I'm so PROUD of you!!! If only I could know how much I weighed, but my goal is to purchase a scale one of these days...
So I'm not doing very well. I've been doing okay the last couple of days (like literally, JUST the last two days) I keep an eye on how many calories I eat at each meal, but last night I botched it. I always get bad towards the end of the day. I had way too much brownie (I kept picking chunks of the brownies out of the pan because they were crumbly) and then probably 3/4 cup of cookie dough icecream. AAAAAHHHH!!! But, I am trying to compensate by making extra trips between my apartment and classes, exercising in the morning and then playing soccer or walking to the park later in the day, etc.
But by NO means am I justifying my bad eating habits! I just try to remind myself when I jack up majorly that if I wasn't trying to lose weight I'd be eating around 1700-2000 calories a day, so when I jack up I'm just not LOSING weight not necessarily gaining. I just say that so I don't get depressed, and then I go on and try to do better than I did.
So I'm not doing very well. I've been doing okay the last couple of days (like literally, JUST the last two days) I keep an eye on how many calories I eat at each meal, but last night I botched it. I always get bad towards the end of the day. I had way too much brownie (I kept picking chunks of the brownies out of the pan because they were crumbly) and then probably 3/4 cup of cookie dough icecream. AAAAAHHHH!!! But, I am trying to compensate by making extra trips between my apartment and classes, exercising in the morning and then playing soccer or walking to the park later in the day, etc.
But by NO means am I justifying my bad eating habits! I just try to remind myself when I jack up majorly that if I wasn't trying to lose weight I'd be eating around 1700-2000 calories a day, so when I jack up I'm just not LOSING weight not necessarily gaining. I just say that so I don't get depressed, and then I go on and try to do better than I did.
Trying to stay positive...
Yesterday I did so well on my eating.... until dinner. Mom and Dad had the missionaries over for dinner and I made a carb-heavy, VERY unhealthy dinner. Chicken and dumplings, this squash-corn cornbread type of stuff, salad (ok thats healthy) and then the kicker-- I made crepes for dessert, filled with vanilla ice cream and topped with strawberry syrup (made with real strawberries) and whipped cream. And I ate a WHOLE ONE! I was literally STUFFED after dinner and felt very guilty about it. It's been quite awhile since I've actually felt stuffed.
Bah.
This morning the scale said 169.2... so I guess I have made minute progress but I was really hoping today would be the day I'd see 168.
I've decided that I need to start taking my measurements. Maybe I'll do that once a week. That may help when I'm so discouraged by the scale.
ETA: I did take my measurements that day and my waist was 35.5 and my hips were somewhere around 50.
Bah.
This morning the scale said 169.2... so I guess I have made minute progress but I was really hoping today would be the day I'd see 168.
I've decided that I need to start taking my measurements. Maybe I'll do that once a week. That may help when I'm so discouraged by the scale.
ETA: I did take my measurements that day and my waist was 35.5 and my hips were somewhere around 50.
Monday, June 23, 2008
Ugh.
Still 169.4 I was hoping that it would change a little in 48 hours since I've been working hard. I'm going to start food journaling again.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)