FINALLY! HALLELUJAH!

I broke through the 170 barrier, 169.4 baby! I am SO happy! I have a renewed energy for working on weight loss, I get to go through the 160's now!!

I didn't get to exercise yesterday, the whole day just kind of slipped away from me. I think the key for me is to get it done before noon. I think I'm going to try and workout with the kids all around me this morning, which sucks but what else can I do? At least tomorrow and the next day Jason will be here so I will have an easier time being 'kidless'.

Eating yesterday-- I did great! I kept thinking about that scale and it kept my hands out of the proverbial 'cookie jar'.

Its funny how my old habits just come back to me without my even thinking about them. Yesterday the kids and I went to Walmart for some school supplies and dog food and in the checkout line I was 'checking out' the candy. I *almost* picked up a York peppermint pattie (which in my fat past I would DEFINITELY have picked one up, probably 2 or 3 and ate at least one on the drive home) but I didn't! I was so proud of myself.

Gah! >.< College stinks!

Okay, so nothing but my food diary now, and I mean EVERYTHING I eat, no mistakes or anything!

6-17-08

banana -110
cereal w/milk - 275
american cheese - 60
fruit roll up - 72
pickle - 2.5
5 strawberries - 50
iceburg salad w/ranch - 70
Bruschetta - 375
carrots
1/2 pb&j sandwich - 200
cabbage w/butter and salt - 100
2 apples - 180
apple crisp - 200

Total for 6-17-08: 1694.5 calories
Desired: 1500

6-18-08

banana - 110
oatmeal w/raisins and butter - 380
part of egg burrito - 75
7 strawberries
10 cherries - 150
4 pickle slices - 10
cheese sandwich - 300
cookie dough - 140
apple - 90
pb sandwich - 190
banana and cookie - 180
licked sweetened condensed milk pot - 75 calories worth I'm guessing...
cookie dough - 275 calories worth I'm guessing...

Total for 6-18-08: 1975 calories
Desired: 1500!!!

As you can see, I have much to work on. I wrote a food intake schedule for me today including foods AND times, leaving me about 660 calories available for me to eat tonight at our international thing.

ARGH! MOVE SCALE!

Today's goal is to NOT foul up my eating.

My weight this morning-- 170.2!!!! I want to see the 160's!! I guess I just keep messing up on my eating so the scale isn't moving quite as fast as it should. Yesterday I ate several cookies worth of chocolate chip cookie dough, a popsicle when it wasn't snack time, a muffin while I was making dinner and various other dietary infractions. Today I will prevail! And maybe, JUST maybe, tomorrow I will see the 160's!

Just hovering...

Ugh! I can't seem to get out of the 170's! I am down to 170.5ish, although this a.m. it said 171 but then I took off my clothes and weighed again after I worked out and it was 170.4 (I think. It was 170.something)

And then, theres the eating. I do SO BAD! Not 'so bad' like I used to but I still can't seem to get the snacking under control. I have been having a lot of bowel problems (sorry I know, TMI!) like not enough is coming out and I have been really thinking about doing a cleanse for awhile. I am thinking about doing the master cleanse, a lady on the diaper divas board has been doing that and it sounds pretty interesting. I think it would make me feel a lot better. I very frequently have an achy, heavy feeling in my belly and I'm 95% certain that it is my bowels. And other factors that would REALLY be TMI also lead me to the same conclusion. ;)

But I have been doing pretty well at exercising. I ran on the treadmill today. Ok I walked AND ran but I like to refer to it as running. I did the interval running. I didn't do crunches but I'll probably do them in a bit while watching tv. I'm trying to get into a routine of doing a workout video one day and then the treadmill the next day. So tomorrow I'll be doing THE FIRM.. I love those videos. I need more of them! Haha

Exercise... in many ways!

So, being at college, I've had to deal with my roomies telling me to "Just eat it! Exercise more if you need to!" >:O stop that! Luckily, I had a talk with Taleea and Katey, and I asked them to NOT let me eat more/don't let me eat their food or encourage me to eat more. Plus, me and Katey just came up with an exercise schedule last night, then wrote an entire fitness contract that we signed. It included: sticking to our meal plan, sticking to our exercise plan, reading our scriptures daily, doing a good deed each day, not thinking/talking about guys all the time (because we need them in our lives, but not ALL the time!), etc. It was fun!

So anyways, I've got soccer class on Mondays and Wednesdays, then we go to the gym on Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays. Mondays we play soccer after FHE, oh and Fridays we also go to the gym. Strength training is Tues/Thurs/Sat and Thursdays are our pool exercise days. Today I got a double dose of exercise though! I'm gonna start going to the Swing Dance thing every Wednesday night, the Latin/Ballroom thing every Thursday night and there's dance workshops from 10-12pm on Saturday. I'm so excited! I'm skipping Latin tomorrow because I think I overdid my exercise today. Garret fell on me in soccer and knocked us both to the ground and then my knee hurt, so I put on my brace, wore it all day until this evening and I was okay at the dance tonight, but my knees feel stressed so... I'll skip the dance tomorrow, but I'm still doing the pool because that's not hard on your joints. :)

There's so much to do here it's so cool! I was NOT gonna eat anything after I got home today, but Katey left me a piece of "Better than Sex" cake that she made for our FHE "Daddy" Nathan tonight, but it was only like 2 inches by 3-4 inches. So that's alright! Other than that, I stuck to my eating plan but probably ate a little more calories than I should.

BTW, I ate a cheese, mushroom and onion quesadilla for dinner... WOW! It was WONDERFUL! I sauteed the mushrooms and onions beforehand.

Small successes...

Well right now I'm at Devins house, the guy Jason is staying with in WV. I've been very careful about what I've been eating and haven't allowed myself to go into what I call "vacation mode" where I just eat whatever I want with no qualms about the consequences. I have been exercising.. well, kind of. I've done DDR the last two nights and some 'ab work' and stretching. And a few pushups. Today I wanted to do my biggest loser workout but I can't figure out how to work the dvd player which is actually an xbox 360, so I'm going to have to do it tonight when Jason and Devin are here. Fun, fun!

I weighed myself the morning that we left and I was 172. Thats down 15 lbs from the start of this blog! WOOT! Devin has a scale but it seems grossly inaccurate (stupid dial scale. This is the digital age Devin! Haha) this morning it looked like 170 but I can't really be certain. I weighed myself at the mall for a quarter and it said I was about 173.5 and that was fully clothed in the middle of the day. But it was also a dial scale! Soooo anyway. I'm trudging along! I feel SO determined this time. I'm not letting myself self-sabotage anymore. I'm in this forever!!

Barely hanging on...

At least thats how I feel right now! I have been having SUCH a hard time with my eating the last few days. I get soooo snacky and feeling almost like I don't care. But I'm NOT giving up. I weighed myself this morning and I was 174.8, which is actually good because I had gone up almost a pound a few days ago. So I haven't really done any backsliding. I'm going to Mom's in a few minutes and I'm going to run on the treadmill. I need it, I didn't exercise at all yesterday and I keep beating myself up over it but all I can do is pick up where I am.

So now my goal is to GET OUT OF THE 170's! I can do it!! Its only 5 lbs away! 169, here I come!